So yes, the job search never ends. Omg, please help me. Sometimes, I feel like I’m alone. I feel very insecure. I feel like there’s no hope. I want to be in control, but things like job opportunities and sublet taking is not in my control. I hate this feeling.

Anyways, I took the Greyhound just so I can be rejected. The job is a firm in Yorkville called the Planning Partnership—they specialize in Urban Design so it’s really interesting. but unfortunately, I lost to one of my colleagues, Margaret. She’s quite talented and I suppose she deserves that position.. her portfolio is quite amazing.

Anyways… I walk all the way from Dundas to Bloor, I never knew that it was that far. :( Anyways, I did better than my other interviews, but I guess it wasn’t good enough.

I met up with Eugene and Mark— Markus was nice enough to go to an earlier lab for me… awwww, thats nice— Eugene’s rez is quite nice, very Bauhaus-stylish… very little attention to detail. Nice job U of T. It was so weird walking down St. George in my suit and with all these hot U of T people— so much people walking around, it’s fun downtown! We went to Eaton Centre, yet again, but got nothing— was too bummed out about the interview to buy anything.

One more paper is done: Now, I have 3 exams, 1 more paper, 2 more group-papers, 1 presentation, 2 more studio assignments, 1 coop placement, 1 sublet placement left to do until December 12. oh my god, help me. I’m so scared. I always say that I won’t let these things discourage me, but I can’t, it’s just too tough, too much for me to handle.